ehem.

arini, xde benda sgt pun nk citer..sbb xde idea ag..
tp tadi, ada bace kt blog kwn pasal PERUT...
oke..setiap org mesti ada perut ean.? haha..btol la..
and about that blog owner, she's really an awesome friend..
DAEBAK!!!!!!!
OK.! BACK TO BUSINESS..
nothing much i can say about it..every single person in this world do have their own stomach aite?
the same process of the human stomach is happening in every human body aite?
i'm not telling i do have a "good-looking-flat" stomach, nope.! NA-AH!
i just wanna say..we are still young and vibe..so, it's kinda hard for us to maintain our body shape..
yeah, because we are still young [again, i repeat]..and also, like my mom always, and still keep saying it..she said " you are still a student, do control your eating..never skip your meal, cause it will affect your health, thus affect your studies "..so, do enjoy your eating, but in a control manner or way or diet..
these stuffs or things i used to do when i was quite "berisi"...

1. i used to drink 2 glasses of plain water before every meal..
 ---> why?? the reason is simple. to make me feel full and thus, it will prevent me from increasing/adding my food portion.
2. i used to walk around or do some exercise with my mom in the evening and jog with my dad
--->  nowadays, NA-AH.! i don't even get the chance to go the park or anywhere [ malas actually lol ]..but, i used to swim with my mom at least twice a week...because, swimming do help us a lot..breathing..and it can also help us to maintain our body figure..and treadmill.! ahah.! is also good.! set your limit..and try to reach your limit or try to exceed your limit, day by day...
3. i used to eat lots of fruits and vegetables and drink lots of fruit juices..
---> the fibers that contains in fruits and vegetables can help your digestive systems..so do consume a lot oke!
and btw, fruit juices can make your skin more smooth and.........[ fikir2kn la..haha ]

so..i think those are some tips i can give...but nowadays..the laziness in myself had made me so hard to do all the above..hehe
never mind, i'll try,...haha

p/s : never stop trying and do believe in yourself..but, never force yourself too hard..as sometimes, it can harm you instead of giving you benefits...

memories

entry kali nie pasal kenangan lama.........
bila tgk bdak2 laki bwak gitar, terengat kt sesorg....
he was my EX...it was my fault i guessed....
cuz we were both busy with everything around us...i guessed, it was me who were too focus on my study...ppfffttt...too focus la konon, tp xdpt pe yg nk.....he always gave me support, telling me i could do and achieved my aims...but i'm sorry, i was just too playful during my time in matrix...i was so careless with everything..and look now, you are a B.Ed TESL student....congrats...you got what you really wanted...you left ASASI SAINS FIZIKAL at UniMAS and went to IPG.....
i know you were good to me...i know...i was jealous when i knew you can play guitar...you'd once called me to play n sang a song for me....but, due to my busy schedule, i left my phone, and there were missed call from you...well then, i'm sorry....i really wished i had a chance to hear you play...
and i do remember we were both asking... "what is our relationship status?"... all i can say that time was " i dunno, i don't even know, i hope i can answer it "...your reply " my friends here asked me about that..about us...i just don't know too "...then, i guessed it was me who ends the status..." i think, it's the best if we become friends, closed friends "...you'd agreed...but after few months later....we don't even text each other...we don't even IM anymore..we don't even look like friends anymore...i wish we could be friends...just like how we first knew each other....just like during the first time you've texted me...just like during our younger days..haha..during Form 4  i guessed..." salam..saya kawan reza..saya just nk tao, awak ada soklan spot x.? " pfffttt..since then we've text each other.....you were my ADIK and i was your AKAK....and so, one day, you send me a ring..from KEDAH..haha...it was crafted "BELLA and MIN".....hurh...so i guessed...it's just the memory...memories that sometimes, are hard for me to erase....
memories bout us...thanks for everything...i still hope that we can become closed friends....not strangers towards each other...again, thanks for everything....and i'm sorry....

KAU.AKU.DIA.KAMU

secara jujurnya, kau org ketiga yang ak kenal kat sini.
orang pertama : rumate ak, tasha.
orang kedua : ikhwan yasin, kwn yg ak kenal kt wangsawalk :)
orang ketiga : kau..kwn ak yg ak sayang kt sini.. :) kyn yahya :)
orang keempat dan seterusnya : radziah dll
ak xkesah la..ak ske tgk kwn2 ak happy..tp ak kdg2 jealous tgk diorg happy..haha
pelik la ak nie...kdg2 ak xley org lagi lebih dr ak...ak rasa trcabar..
tp lama2 ak da faham..ak blaja mgalah..not every person is perfect...so do i...
oke..ak maybe bukan kwn yg baik buat ko..sbb ak asyik wat ko marah je..
ada je yg xkena ak wat...kdg2 ak sedih bila kita gaduh..
bdak2 leyn pun slalu tnya " ko asal nie.? gadow dgn kyn la lagi tu "...ak hnya mampu senyum saja..
ak try xnk wat ko marah...ak try jd kwn yg beyk utk ko..tp ntah kenapa..susah sikit...
ak da try mcm2 xnk wat ko marah or sedih, tp last2 hati ak yg sedih...
about my hp, nothing much i can say.....btw ak penat skit masa tu..and ak xde mood sgt lepas jwab titas..and sorry ak gunakn baju ko...i do understand...and again, sorry...
and bila ak dgr korg kluar,. gi mesra mall ek? ak mcm...oke...fine...
xpe la..ak yg wat hal time tu..again sorry...
lagipun, naseb la ak brtembung ngn si ikhwan,..dia pun teman la ak lunch...hurm...
and bila ak mesej si sarah, ak tnya korg kt ne, dia xblas, tu yg ak mcm terkesima skjp...tp xpe, ak da blaja cara2 nk cope dgn situasi tu...and mungkin sgt susah utk ak cope dgn situasi itu...tp xpe, ak try...
ak wat keje2 yg gila...ak gi sana sini...ak kacow org...tp dlm hati ak still terfikir2....

i'm trying to cope with everything here...
i'm trying to change myself for a better me...
i'm trying to be the best for everyone..
i'm trying.....
sometimes, it's so tiring that i get bored easily with everything..
i'm easily get mad or angry at someone..
i'm easily full of envy and everything...
sometimes, i do feel that my life is very sucks.!
it's hard for others to understand me..all i can do is just cry...
my life is quite pathetic..i felt like i'm being locked in a cage...
i don't have any freedom...but sometimes, it's a good thing...
but now, i won't mess my life..i'm trying..
if it's for my future sake, i'll try...

x semua orang sempurna...masing2 ada kesalahan diri sendiri..and ak pun sedar ak ada byk kesalahan dan kelemahan..so,again for, i don't know how many times...
ak MINTA MAAF sgt2 dari ko..ak harap ko halalkan makan n minum ak...maafkan ak andai guraun ak ada wat ko terkesima...maafkan ak andai ak byk wat ko sakit hati or luka hati...maafkan ak.....ak hanya mampu nk minta maaf je dari ko...ak xmampu nk wat pe ag dah..............................................

again and again

nothing much i can say today
just that i'm going insane about my final exam
it's just around the corner.
but, if you can see how i'm struggling with it
you might be as well as insane i can be right now.
hurh
all i can do now is that,
be strong, study as i can, won't force myself,
TAWAKAL to Allah..
but as long as i can USAHA, i won't give myself up.
i won't.

jodoh

begitu mudah untuk seorang utk jatoh cinta/hati..
begitu juga dengan diriku.
tp kenapa terpaut pada si dia.?
maybe sbb dia caring.? dia baek.?
ntahla.
ak xkesah.
lao mmg jodoh ak dgn dia, ak terima seadanya.
ak tao, jodoh pertemuan semua di tangan Allah.
ak tgk muka dia, tenang je ak rasa.
kdg2 ak smgt nk blaja sbb tgk muka dia..
andai kata, dia bukan jodohku, ak terima juga.
apepun, ak serahkn semua ni kepada Allah.

2011 ----> 2012

from 2011 to 2012..
another 1 day left.
can't wait to begin a new year.!
countdown people..!
meyn mercun...meyn bunga api..
kira countdown reramai..
seyesly, i can't wait for the new beginning!
but, i totally don't wanna wait for my finals to begin.!
oh-no.! NO.! i ain't ready yet.!
but i do promise one thing, i hope that i can fulfill it,
i do promise, i'll try my best to succeed in my finals.!
pray for my best mak, ayah, abang2..family la senang katakan..
i hope i can change myself to be a better me..
conflicts.? it's always been a part of my everyday life.
so...HAPPY NEW YEAR.!

ouch.!

happy.? yes.! totally.!
but then, when it comes to my total pain,
what i'm trying to say is, my MIGRAINE.
DANG-! it hurts a lot..! it does.!
i went to doctor last few days, and i asked her [ the doctor ] bout it,
and all she can say that, if my migraine attacks often, i need to be referred to the specialist.
and she also said that, migraine don't have any medicine, except UBAT TAHAN SAKIT.
i can't say more about it. but sometimes, it's hard for me to focus on something, even in my studies..
i also often hear sounds/things i shouldn't hear...
sometimes, my nose bleeds...
my ex-room mate said that i might feel so tensed about my upcoming exams.
no, i dunno. it's not that i ain't taking serious about my finals, but, i just don't want to stress myself..
all i can say is, it does hurt a lot.!
sometimes, i skipped my classes.
sometimes, i just wanna die.
wish i can overcome this pain easily.
sometimes, due to my pain, i can see what others can't.
it's not that i would like to give up in my life [NEVER]
but this pain had made me like this..

" If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song "

i kept singing this song to myself.

i kept thinking about my future life.

i kept thinking about everything.

my family, my friends.

YA ALLAH, KURNIAKANLAH HAMBAMU INI KEKUATAN DAN KETABAHAN UNTUK MENGHADAPI CABARAN HIDUP KU

p/s : i ain't giving up. i'll try my best. but if this year will be our last year together, i hope you will cherish our moments forever. and if not, let us pray together for my health. amin