2011 ----> 2012

from 2011 to 2012..
another 1 day left.
can't wait to begin a new year.!
countdown people..!
meyn mercun...meyn bunga api..
kira countdown reramai..
seyesly, i can't wait for the new beginning!
but, i totally don't wanna wait for my finals to begin.!
oh-no.! NO.! i ain't ready yet.!
but i do promise one thing, i hope that i can fulfill it,
i do promise, i'll try my best to succeed in my finals.!
pray for my best mak, ayah, abang2..family la senang katakan..
i hope i can change myself to be a better me..
conflicts.? it's always been a part of my everyday life.
so...HAPPY NEW YEAR.!

ouch.!

happy.? yes.! totally.!
but then, when it comes to my total pain,
what i'm trying to say is, my MIGRAINE.
DANG-! it hurts a lot..! it does.!
i went to doctor last few days, and i asked her [ the doctor ] bout it,
and all she can say that, if my migraine attacks often, i need to be referred to the specialist.
and she also said that, migraine don't have any medicine, except UBAT TAHAN SAKIT.
i can't say more about it. but sometimes, it's hard for me to focus on something, even in my studies..
i also often hear sounds/things i shouldn't hear...
sometimes, my nose bleeds...
my ex-room mate said that i might feel so tensed about my upcoming exams.
no, i dunno. it's not that i ain't taking serious about my finals, but, i just don't want to stress myself..
all i can say is, it does hurt a lot.!
sometimes, i skipped my classes.
sometimes, i just wanna die.
wish i can overcome this pain easily.
sometimes, due to my pain, i can see what others can't.
it's not that i would like to give up in my life [NEVER]
but this pain had made me like this..

" If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song "

i kept singing this song to myself.

i kept thinking about my future life.

i kept thinking about everything.

my family, my friends.

YA ALLAH, KURNIAKANLAH HAMBAMU INI KEKUATAN DAN KETABAHAN UNTUK MENGHADAPI CABARAN HIDUP KU

p/s : i ain't giving up. i'll try my best. but if this year will be our last year together, i hope you will cherish our moments forever. and if not, let us pray together for my health. amin

.: kesudahan yg sadis n tradis :.

kdg2 ak terfikir,
lao kwn, bley ke kwn smpai bila2.?
kwn nie bley jd kwn idop semati kita ke.?
btol kwn kita nie xkn makan kwn sendiri.?
kwn kita nie, akan backup kita ke walau papapun trjadi.?
kwn kita nie, akan sentiasa jd kwn kita ke.?


tp bila lama2 da berkawan, baru ak faham.
kawan nie, stakat kawan je..
kawan nie, kawan kita sama2 wat keja gila..
kawan nie, kawan kita bersuka bersama2..
kawan nie, kawan kita berduka bersama2 [ ada ke.? , maybe ada, maybe xde ]


lama2 berkawan..
ak da mula sedar..jodoh pertemuan, ajal maut sume kt tangan TUHAN.
kadang2 kwn kita tu bley meninggal dulu drpd kita..
xpun kita yg pergi dulu..
kadang2 kwn kita tu kawin dulu drpd kita,
xpun kita yg kawin dulu..


so, kadang2 kita kena terima apa yg terjadi dgn seadanya..
kadang2 bkn kehendak kita benda2 ni nk trjadi..
kadang2 da masak ngn perangai kwn kita sendiri..
kadang2 kita asyik terfikir je, "macam mana la ak nk jaga hati kwn ak nie "
dan tnpa disedari HATI KITA YANG TERLUKA DAN TERGURIS DULU..


kerana kawan, kita sanggup berkorban..
kawan kita.? lao sesorg tu ikhlas berkawan, kadang2 benda ni xkn terlintas..
tp kadang2 akan terlintas..
xkesah la, lao kwn kita tu ikhlas ke tak berkawan dgn kita..
hati manusia tak ada sapa yg faham..
" rambut sama hitam, hati lain-lain "


apa yang ak tao, ak sayang kt kwn2 ak..
ak xnk tgk diorg sedih.
ak xnk tgk diorg terluka.
ak lao bley, nk tgk diorg bahagia je.
nk tgk diorg gembira je.
xmo lebih dr itu.
kadang2 ak nk je mati dulu b4 kwn2 ak..
sbb kadang2 ak fikir..
ak nie kadang2 troublemaker..
ak nie ske menyusahkn kwn2 ak..


biarlah.
ikhlas ke tak, kita xkn pernah tao.
kita akan tao time kita kawen or mati..
sbb, time tu kita bley tao dia ikhlas ke tak..
lao ikhlas, mesti dia dtg n happy n mcm2 ag la..[ time kawen ]
lao ikhlas, mesti dia akn tangisi pemergian kita sehingga ada org dtg pujuk.. [time meninggal ]


p/s : ak xtujukn kepada sapa2..just luahan hati pasal kwn..apa2pun, i really love and care for my friends..

assignments.tests = demam

bila assignment da berlambak, 
test plak tetibe mcm sekali lambak.
stay up bagai nk rak..[sape surow]
last2 demam...
da la cuaca berubah2..
sedih je..
nasib esok blek umah..
homesix ar gaks..
huhu

tershasyul..hahahha

oops..tershasyul la.!

aduhai..mcm2 la manusia zaman skrg nie..

tp nk wat mcm ne..kita semua xperfect..btol x..

so..ak nk citer pasal sorg kwn ak nie..

nama dia..NORAZILAH BT MUSA..or ada org pggil dia..NONONG..

ntah apa pnya nama pggilan la tu..tu la..sape surow jln xkesah pasal org leyn..cube bygkn..bygkan la...lao tetibe dia jalan dia msok longkang ke parit ke..n org sume buat xendah je..tp ada org yg terperasan..lao ak jd org tu..mmg MUAHHHAHAHAHAAHHAHAAHHA..!!! 

ak gelak..haha sorry zila..saje.

nk citer pasal dia nie..haih..lawak btol la bdak sorg tu..oops..akak sorg tu..haha

asyik tersasul je..dari provide ke provoid..three musketeers ke three musketeteteers..pastu, dr an error occur ke an occur error...haha..pastu ape ag ek...alah, xkesah la..manusia mesti ada je silap n salah dia...tp xpe, tersasul dia tu buat ak gelak n kdg2 ilang tension or stress ak..

ada ag sorg nie..pun selalu jugak haha..tp yg nie latest gila...dia nk ckp handphone, dia g ckp telehand..haahha..pandai btol..

ak pun slalu gaks..time keje dulu, nk ckp brownies walnut, tp kalot xsmpt potong kek punya pasal, ak trsebot, BROWNUT..haha gabungan..bagus tol..

apa2pun..sume nie gud memories n pgajaran jugak la..

p/s : spt post sblm nie..manusia xde yg perfect..so terima jela org leyn dgn seadanya..don't judge the book by its cover..so..enjoy la tersasul semua..! kdg2 memalukan, tp bila fikir balek..klakar

broadband or berukband or beras...??

hahhaha..lawak gila la citer mlm nie...

mmg lawak..bagi ak la..

alkisah nye bermula begini..

ak tgh dok kt tepi dinding kt tepi pintu bilik ak. pastu kwn ak sorg nie, wani, dtg nk pulangkan penyodok..ak pun smbg la berdiri..tetibe dia ckp.." ina, ko gna x lappy ko? ak nk gna bley.? " ak pun bls la. " bley je..gunalah.." pastu, dia pun ckp ag " ak nk pnjm skali broadband bley x.?" ak pun balas la.." hurm "..tetibe..dia ada rumate si wani nie tnya " wani, ko nk x buah nie ? "..n secara x lgsung nye..si wani nie tnya ak balek " ina, nk pnjm beras ko bley x? "...ak tros gelak gila2..haha..mana la dtg beras wey.? haha..dr broadband ke beras..mak aiihhh..jaoh beza tu wani ooiiih..

lagi satu nie..tyme kt matrik..geram gila ngn connection broadband kt kmpk..bapak lembap la broadband celcom time tu..tnsion gila..tetibe, tgh online FB, ada akak nie pnya post.." BODOH NYE BERUKBAND.." hahahha..mmg satu benda yg lawak la broadband nie..

p/s : sbg manusia..kita mmg xpenah perfect..so..mmg da jadi asam garam kita nk slalu tersasul secara tetibe..n jgn kata kamu xpnah trsasul..tipu la..xkn la kamu tu perfect sangat...

RESPECT, please.!

YOU ARE NOT A 

PRINCES

oke.?!!

if you think you are good enough, you won't show it.!

let it show by itself.!

even a real princess won't admit she's a princess..but your attitude,

urgh.! seyesly.? you are just messing with my life n yours n others too..!

stop acting like you can order/command others what to do or to follow you..n stop saying words that can annoy others., especially to me..!!! 

k..ko egt ak kesah sgt ke kt ko.?? da la cara ckp mcm xhormat lgsung kt org..

mmg da cara ko mcm tu kot..tp, jgn ar smpai nk ckp ngn org leyn mcm ko da kenal "ak" lama je...i'm just being a friend..just giving some advice about respect even i only know a little bout it..like what my mom used to say : 

" once you respect others, others will follow "..i'm not saying, i'm that "BAGUS" or what..but at least, do respect others..

you want others to respect you, but you don't..so, assuming that, i've learned mine long time ago, it's time for you out there, to learn something about respect..we can't determine what others are saying bout us, but at least, show some respect..one day, people will know/find out about our "true" selves..

or in BM " da nampak belang sebenar "..

p/s : it's not that hard to show our respect..we just need to learn it time by time..

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