ouch.!

happy.? yes.! totally.!
but then, when it comes to my total pain,
what i'm trying to say is, my MIGRAINE.
DANG-! it hurts a lot..! it does.!
i went to doctor last few days, and i asked her [ the doctor ] bout it,
and all she can say that, if my migraine attacks often, i need to be referred to the specialist.
and she also said that, migraine don't have any medicine, except UBAT TAHAN SAKIT.
i can't say more about it. but sometimes, it's hard for me to focus on something, even in my studies..
i also often hear sounds/things i shouldn't hear...
sometimes, my nose bleeds...
my ex-room mate said that i might feel so tensed about my upcoming exams.
no, i dunno. it's not that i ain't taking serious about my finals, but, i just don't want to stress myself..
all i can say is, it does hurt a lot.!
sometimes, i skipped my classes.
sometimes, i just wanna die.
wish i can overcome this pain easily.
sometimes, due to my pain, i can see what others can't.
it's not that i would like to give up in my life [NEVER]
but this pain had made me like this..

" If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song "

i kept singing this song to myself.

i kept thinking about my future life.

i kept thinking about everything.

my family, my friends.

YA ALLAH, KURNIAKANLAH HAMBAMU INI KEKUATAN DAN KETABAHAN UNTUK MENGHADAPI CABARAN HIDUP KU

p/s : i ain't giving up. i'll try my best. but if this year will be our last year together, i hope you will cherish our moments forever. and if not, let us pray together for my health. amin