memang sadis. sape.? pemilik blog ini la..haih..apatah lagi bila baca blog org tu..nampak gaya, kwn sorg tu mmg da nekad nk tinggalkan sini...hurm xpela kan..da mmg dia nk gi..nk wat mcm ne..sbb tu kdg2 niat di hati xmo da rapat2 sgt dgn dia..tkot lao dia btol2 gi...xdela nak sedyh2 sgt..stiap kali dia ckp pasal nk pindah atao mohon u/kolej leyn, hati ak nie tros terdetik..terkesima..ter apa2 ag la...bergenang je air mata..xpe, nurina, tahan je..nk thn dia.? mcm xde harapan je..nurina, biar je la dia nk gi..doakan je la dia berjaya dgn cemerlang dlm apa jua dia amek...n doakan dia bahagia dunia akhirat..hurm...xpela..da penat ak nages...da penat ak kenang..da penat hati ni berduka lara...da penat dgn segala2nya..tp nk wat mcm ne..lao org da bernekad nk gi..biarkn jela....seriously..ak da xtao nk ckp pe..ak rasa mcm da redha je..tp semua kwn2 ak da ckp.." lao ko btol2 sayangkn dia, biarkn dia pg n doakn je yg terbaik utk dia..n igt, dia pernah menjadi kwn ko.." ok..kdg2 senang org nk ckp..tp hati nie da mcm2 rasa...sbb tu kdg2 ak mls nk lyn da..ak xmo rapat2 dgn dia..tp tkot dia trase...tp..tp..haih..byk gila tapi ak...bukan senang nk lepaskn kwn yg ko rapat n sayang mcm tu je..bukan senang...k..lao di ikotkn hati....mmg ak nk tukar kos...tp, bila difikirkn, mcm2 plak akan trjadi n kena wat...xpela, xmo menyusahkan parents ak da..ak nie mmg ske menyusahkan diorg...da la asyik sakit je memanjang...haih..eh, nurina, asyik mengeluh je..xbeyk.!
back to the mixed feeling i have..
people easily said this to me..just let her go..fine..it's easy for them to say..but how bout my feeling.? is that easy for me to let her go.? to let someone who is so closed to you just go like that.? is it easy.? i'm telling you the truth..it's never been that easy.!!! no longer in the mood of saying anything..i always say this to her.." lao nk gi, gi jela..ak da xkesah.." seems like i'm giving up ri8.? but yeah.,maybe..because there's nothing else i can do..if she really wanna go, just go..she has been a part of my life, if that's all i can say..and if she's really gone..i can only say, she used to be part of my memories..am i mad at her.? used to..but now, i can only say, just let her go..it's up to you my friend..it's ur future..it's u to decide your own future, i can't no longer hold you as my friend..i can't no longer shed any tears for you i guess..but i really, u won't regret in everything u've decided..
p/s : buddie, all the best ye..
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